My Dear Sweet Spookie aka:
Pookie, Spookles, Sassy Man, Feisty Kitty, Pook-Pook, Spookielicious, My Sweet Kitty!
I loved you so much. You were such a great friend and teacher to me for 15+ years. You always stuck by my side through it all. You helped with my evolution of transforming into a loving, compassionate, balanced, stable woman due to your unconditional love and genuine care for my well-being. Your demeanor was always adaptable, considerate, selfless, easy going, and lovable. You were friendly with everyone you met- spreading the headbutts and love. You even changed a few people's minds who said "I'm not a cat person, but I love your cat!"
From prancing on top of the vaulted cabinets in our first apartment together, just to make me laugh, to sleeping with me in my bed every single night, you always knew how to make me smile even at my lowest of low points in life.
Instead of running away when I cried or before I knew how to properly handle my anger, you would always come sit on me or headbutt me to help me feel loved. To remind me that it was ok... as if you, Spookie, were saying, "I've got you and you've got me- you're not alone, I understand your pain, I see the beauty lying beneath that is surfacing after you were forced to be someone you weren't to survive at a very young age."
You helped me become emotionally balanced and mentally stable by showing me I could trust which allowed me to become vulnerable and ask for the help and support I needed to heal my trauma-which was controlling me, holding me hostage.
You helped me overcome severe depression, anxiety, and loneliness. You helped me never feel completely alone. You made me see my strong, undeniable connection to animals and how love is free and does not require me to be something I'm not in order to receive it. You made me see I deserve to be loved unconditionally for who I truly am and that my abusive childhood, periodically spanning into my early 30's, did not define me and shackle me to a life of misery. You helped me break ancestral trauma patterns by letting me know it was ok to express my emotions to animals, which in turn translated to people, when I was so terrified of expressing them to any human due to past brutal repercussions.
I am forever grateful to you and know I will feel you, see you, and simply know you're still with me for the rest of this lifetime on this planet. What I Ioved about you most is you wanted to ensure before you peacefully crossed over that I was ok, that I had another little angel lined up to teach me what I need to learn next to continue growing into the best version of myself and to carry on with manifesting my dream life. I know you guided me to Dewie, our new kitty.
You truly were an angel in a furry kitty body! You were so selfless you gracefully hid being ill from me knowing I would be absolutely devastated at a prolonged passing.
In true Spookie fashion, even until your last breath, you had the most beautiful, soft, silky fur, the cutest little pink nose and gorgeous green and blue eyes that always gave me hope and strength to not leave this planet- even when I felt like I wanted to commit suicide several times just to experience what peace felt like. You helped show me a different way by just being there so I could find my tribe and community with humans. Having a safe space with you allowed me to find a safe space with the right people who understand the mind, body, spirit connection and connection to Divine Source. I now know that everything is divinely ordered and that I was always being protected, I just didn't know it at the time!
I loved waking up to you every morning curled up on my right side. I loved your loud prance that I could hear from across the house even though you only weighed 10lbs. I loved your headbutts and how you let me give you little boops! I loved our morning routine of breakfast and you waiting on the plush shower mat for me when I got ready. I loved how you would give me a kitty runway show by prancing on the long granite countertop of the double sinks in the bathroom. I loved how you would greet me at the door every time I came home. I loved how you always wanted to snuggle and spend time with Derek and I. I loved how you gave me grace when I was too depressed to clean your litter box. I loved how flexible, laid back, and sweet you were.
You taught me how to access these traits and later... after I was divinely guided to a wise, unconditionally loving, highly gifted Earth angel with vivacious, glistening blond hair ... who taught me how to incorporate these into my energy field.
I especially loved watching your special bond with Derek grow and evolve into a beautiful revelation only you two will understand.
I will always love you, more than I can even express in the moment. This is merely just a snap shot of 15.5 years. I know we will meet again and it will be absolutely, monumentally beautiful! Reincarnate in peace- you will be Fur-Ever missed by Derek and I!!!
11/09/2023 - Shine on Spookie! We love you so, so much!
*** Notice the angel number 9:11 with his passing. God is good. ***